So, I just finished my first week of work and I'm already well on my way for the next. I'm already thinking about the end of this amazing summer and how I can't yet bear to imagine myself leaving this place. I do miss my friends back home dearly, but I wish there were some way they can be transported here with me in Pittsburgh! The atmosphere is so amazing. We work together, sleep in the same room/building together, eat together, and hang out together. I'm building good relationships. I do miss the openness I share with my friends back home though because the people here are a little more closed. I start to share things of the heart and they get uneasy but after awhile they start to open up themselves or at least listen better, just because I decided to be transparent.

Just last night I had a conversation with a non-Christian staff member. I was dealing with some issues and other staff members tried to cheer me up but I just felt condemned. Afterwards I talked with the non-Christian and I had a breakthrough. My mentor, Pastor Clinton, has been talking about Evangelicalism in our Bible Study back home for awhile now and I don't think I totally understood until last night. I am still processing it all but I know now that I am tired of this fake Christianeeze. I want to be real with myself and the world. People can judge me if they want but in the end it's not them who really judge me, but God.